without my family. If I thought thanksgiving wasnt enough, it had to be the time where my uncle went back. I miss hawaii so much and I've been counting down. 3 months and 3 more days. My life's on pause. I already registered and I cant wait to go back to school. I spent thanksgiving with paul :) Food was good, and his families great. Got a hug from mama Sinmany and I was surprised. Days have past and now its almost Christmas. I started snowing just a few days ago. Crazy stuff. Its so pretty. But ugly now that Its too cold to even do anything. Im snowed in for sure. Hard to even get around now so Im stuck. Got done putting up the christmas tree and we even got to pick it out and cut it down ourselves. What would I do without my Hanh :)
I cant get a hold of my feelings anymore. The more I spend time with him the more I create these feelings. Because he honestly has to be the most sweetest guy in the world. Its been forever since I felt like this where you know damn well that I'm the only girl he's with and he cant be any happier. Im use to having them come and go. It just sucks that I had to meet him now. I know it sounds easy to just say were official but I know I'm not ready ready even if it feels right. I always seem to push him away for his own good but I really didnt know its affecting everything around us. I didnt mean to :( and for that reason I think I should make the move. I dont want to, ugh this shit is hard. Cause I pretended for a long time and now its down to it. I'll be occupied with school & work. Im just waiting for the right time...we'll i guess its never the right time now.
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