Its been a long time...

since i felt like this :) we finally said i love you the other night. it took months but it felt right. i cant stop smiling. this guy is amazing and i can only see a future. he's sweet, got a good life ahead of him with school and work, takes good care of me, cooks ;), and waking up next to him is just...*sigh i honestly didnt believe that i could feel this way again, and now that its here, im not going to do anything that'll screw it up. thats my promise. with that said, i got a very unexpected call last night. it was from "him" the guy who broke my heart into a thousand pieces, and well were ok as friends. anyways the subject about going back home came about and it sickens me that he is STILL that guy, he will never learn, and he's got something so good that i really dont know why he's doing this. I've come to my senses and I grew from it, i've done a lot of things that im not proud of but god has blessed me with something special and it may not have worked out with him, but i know it will out with my boyfriend know. i respect my ex. Anyways so I told him that I was in love and there was no way I could do to ruin that. and then after that conversation I was actually the first one to hang up and go back to bed with my love :) (and yes he knows all of this) and woke up and walked/took the bus with me to work. i cant wait to take him back home in hawaii. im sure my family will love him just as much as i do.

im working, and going to school. Hence, the reason why i dont go on here much.